pieces of my heart

MELLOW ALERT!
Jangan baca kalau ngga nahan baca tulisan mellow dan galau... Hehehe...

So... I'm 21 and I've finally felt my first heart break... The kind that felt like your heart is shredded and tossed into the garbage can. And it hurts so much.

Gw bilang ke orang-orang kalau gw fine2 aja. That I'm already over it. And I truly think that I was fine. (Sorry yah jadi pake Bahasa Inggris, tapi hal2 kayak gini somehow gw lebih nyaman pake Bahasa Inggris)

But it just hit me like a bullet today that I'm not fine at all, at least not yet. My heart still feels like it's being repeatedly stabbed with a rusty knife. Is it wrong that I feel this way? Is it a foolish thing?

I need help, actually. I need someone who can coax the story out of me... (It's really hard to coax a story out of me, even though I really want to tell them)

Maybe, after all the glass shards have been removed, I can finally start picking up the shattered pieces of my heart...